Illusions of the self - Held in captivity

It was only later in my life, that I came to know that the great scientist of this world, took over 3 decades to publish his theory, Charles Lyell tried to convince Darwin that other scientists would be thinking about the origin of species, and may claim the glory, 3 years later in 1859, the “origin of species” was only published, but it would mean Darwin had been sitting on his work for more than 30 years, contemplating what people may say or not, he was held captive by his own thoughts of fear and retribution.

We are brought up to walk amongst the masses, raise our glass even if we don’t agree to the toast, shake hands with each other and further nod and agree who is better and who is worse, drop our heads in shame of others, hardly speak our truth, adhere to a moral compass that has been force fed, or one which we defend fiercely, even if we don’t believe in it, when do you become your authentic self without bias. To be the catalyst of change you have to stand apart from the rest without indoctrination, projection and patterning, it will mean that some will like you and some will hate you, but if you pick wrong, you will eventually die not realising who you actually even were.

If you are not playing the role of your authentic self then you have become an alternative other, in which you agree on what society believes you to be, through religion, cultural mandates, guardians, teachers, an educational system and later the organisations we work for.

Sadly 90% of perceptions that are experienced in our everyday lives, have been so hardwired and constructed in our brain that we make automated decisions or unconsciously conscious decisions, deepening the perception or the bias even further, which curiously we defend even if we don’t know why, but responding in a familial patterning which may have been ingrained by cultural mandates and requirements, and strengthened in upbringing, the false sense of security to be in alignment to those belief systems and values. If you haven't questioned it yet, you may still be asleep or just comfortable, and will definitely be coming up through 2020 or after your 30’s/40/50’s for re-examination.

If you were given the choice that you could have anything you wanted, a huge part would be based on indoctrination. What you think you should have, based on another person’s wealth, health and happiness, what you should want, how success looks, how love looks based on social constructs, and when you work feverishly to achieve what another person’s success looks like and finally achieve it, will it make you truly happy? Did you follow your own path or someone else’s path? Freud (1915) explains that unconscious mind is the primary source of human behaviour. Like an iceberg, the most important part of the mind is the part you cannot see. Our feelings, motives and decisions are actually powerfully influenced by our past experiences, and stored in the unconscious mind, if you open up this and honestly see yourself, pull on the golden thread, you may even come up with a whole new path, of new things that are important to you which you can add value and belief to, meaning that you are consciously conscious. You may realise that those things that were simple are valuable, when having kind eyes and a good heart matter. How you think differently about the world and to be in the world, not necessarily marked by how others perceive you to be. By taking your shoes off when you walk on grass, can you stop adulting for a bit and just be, and allow? It's after all your free will, and should be without fear of retribution, and only you and yours alone.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I –

I took the one less travelled by,

And that has made all the difference

-Robert Frost